I had a dear friend I grew up with, leave The Lie. He was third generation Bethelite. Like wow! How could he be so theocratic and leave? He left The Lie a few years after marrying. For decades I thought he must have gotten involved in swinging, you know, sex orgies and such. It never crossed my mind that he would have left because he found out his grandfather's religion was all a con, rules and doctrines dictated by narcissistic men, lording in over the flock.
After I read CofC I looked up and found my old friends phone number and called. I said to him in all sincerity, ___, why didn't you tell me this religion was all fake? I don't think he said anything. I actually was in shock after not talking to him since 1969 at a convention. I think I said that if I had known it was all made up non sense, and he was the one that said it, and told me it was all garbage, I would have believed him, and it would have changed my whole life.
What an unintended heavy responsibility I put on his shoulders. He had no responsibility to tell me, to give me the key to unlock the JW..org prison door so I could escape. I am sorry ___ if I sounded hurt. There is no turning the clock back, should of, could of, would of. No. All of us can only go forward with the knowledge we have available to each of us now.
No. No apostate influenced me.
Too many strutting their stuff Elders, said and did too many things to me when seperating from my abusive Elder husband. Pray more. Be a better wife. Go out in service more. Read your Bible more. The final cop out, leave it in Jehovah's hands and stay together. What???
The most educated (of course, not a JDub) and highly respected man I knew had told me a few years before when I was trying to preach to him... Didn't I know about the cave drawings in France that are over 17,000 years old? Noooo. You should look it up. So I did. Oh oh. I had been trying to tell him about mankind being just over 6,000 years old... and about the creative days, (because that is what those GB high school idiots told me and being a good little zombie that learned through 5 meetings a week to parrot out, back, what was said to me... ) He, and many others, must have taken me for a bloomin' idiot too!
I would still shy away from those ones who are shouting out or picketing at District Conventions. I don't listen to... religious fanatics anymore.